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:: this lil' blogger name : Lizzie Hie from : Selangor, Malaysia born : 12th December 1986
interests Serving the Lord dancing, singing and playing the piano. Watching TV & movies. Listening to music. Sleeping!!! *ZzZz* Most of all, living out loud for Jesus Christ!
:: this I know- I'm a Christian that led a crazy life (well, I'm a teen, growing up!). Of course, living a Christian life sure is fun and exciting! More challenges each day, though its tough and tiring at times but hey! I have a God that loves me and He loves you too!
"...so that you may become blameless and pure, children of God without fault in a crooked and depraved generation, in which you shine like stars in the universe." -Phil 2:15
"Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; In all your ways acknowledge Him and He will make your paths straight." -Proverbs 3:5,6
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Aug 5, 2005
Ever dreamt of just dancing freely, just anywhere and anyway you like? I remember when I was a kid, probably around the age of 6 to 7 years, I love dancing around the hall, when my dad put on one of his CDs. I took ballet classes during that period as well. It was so fun being able to dance so freely, without being so self-concious. It was only my dad and I there.
Now, as I grew to be a 19 year old, young adult (or maybe still a teen?), I find it difficult to actually express myself through dancing. I worry of what others may think or whether my hands and feet coordination is right. I've been in the dance worship team for almost 7 years now. I stopped for a while. I felt as though its a routine... I can't seem to express myself much.
Everytime I listen to a song, I feel like dancing. Almost always, I would imagine myself dancing... When a song is presented to the Heavenly Father, I imagine myself dancing in front of Him... like dancing in front of His throne... an expression of worship. When a romantic song is heard, I imagine, dancing with my 'dream' guy... may it be under the moonlight/stars or in a romantic environment.
I love imagining myself twirl around... not too many times though, or I'll get a headache. As a child, you just don't care... you twirl around until you fall! I saw one of my pastor's kid, twirled around, until she fell... though so, she got up with a smile on her face! A smile so inspiring that brought warmth to my heart!
Why is it that I can't dance so freely in real life? All I can do is imagine. I am not really a good choreographer... but I know that when I imagine myself dancing, these are the words that come into mind...
...freedom...
...joy...
...passion/love...
...child-like...
...magical...
...intimate...
...expression...
...worshipful...
...gift...
...life...
Posted at 04:42 am by starlightliz
Aug 3, 2005
My Ideal self (well, close to that)
Your Beauty lies in Plain Sight. Plain, simple and the girl next door. People tend overlook you as you are the "normal girl", but you're actually very beautiful. And you have plenty about you to set you apart, but more that lets you blend. People love the stability you have because as others may come and go, you will always be there and you may always be the same. You like simple things and that's what people like about you. You most likely enjoy things most consider normal, like movies, shopping, that sort of thing and are very friendly and probably have many friends. You are sweet and kind and that shows on you, but you're also strong and not very naive. You're a rather well-rounded individual. Even though some people pass you off as just another girl, shrug it off because they don't know what they're missing.
Some Things That Represent You:
Element: Earth, Light Animal: Cat Color: Pinks, Blues, Browns Song: Girl Next Door by Pilot Expression: Simple Smile
Gemstone: Alexandrite Mythological Creature: Hobbit Planet: Jupiter Hair Color: Light Brown Eye Color: Brown
Quote: "To the world you may be one person, but to one person you may be the world."
Heheh well, this is what I would like to be. I do like movies and sometimes shopping (hardly do this... only if i have a reason to..). I like the quote... I do hope that I am more stable in my life. Though I am predictable, I find my life isn't as stable as I like it to be. A friend once told me that I shouldn't let circumstances push me around. I should take hold of it. Also, understanding the serenity prayer...
God grant me the SERENITY to accept the things I cannot change,
COURAGE to change the things I can,
And the WISDOM to know the differnce.
As much as i love always being there for others, I realised that I am only one... I can't be everywhere at the same time. Not physically... So, I just need to do my best. I show my support and lend a hand whenever I can. A friend sometimes just need a friend to be there... not for advice through tough times but act of being there maybe to listen or just being around, does have a sigificant role that many people does not realize. I find that I am often so busy with my own life. I can hardly find time to spend time with the people I love or care for; my friends, my family... the people around me that may need someone to just be around. May not need to see me, perhaps just seeking for someone that can be hear them, understand them... You don't have to be smart to do so.. You don't have to give million advises to make them feel better. Just be a true friend... be around whenever you can.. and when you know that you can.
Care: Shared pain halved the pain, shared happiness doubles the happiness
I don't mind being seen as just a normal girl but still the uniqueness does not lose its meaning. What i mean is... Being able to set apart/different and yet blend is surely a trait that i sure want to possess and i believe it is not what people can easily do. I've always wanted to be special in my own ways... yet not attracting too much attention or because of my 'uniqueness' am seperated from being able to adapt with other conditions. Get what I mean? That's why a combination of setting apart and being able to blend just seem unique itself *okie, i know that the way i phrase it is confusing... don't quite know how to put it.. if you can re-phrase it for me... please help me do so! hehehe if you understand what I am trying to say la*
I've always thought that simple is the best. We don't need to make life so complicated. Then again, things may not be as simple as we thought it would be. It's how you perceive it to be...
Posted at 04:17 am by starlightliz
Erm... girlish? A love of dresses and ponies!!!??? >_< hehehahaha I like to wear dresses only for special occasions. That's like once a year for weddings, proms or something. That is when i like to dress up. Ponies??? ermm.. i do like horses... but i am scared of riding them. Tried before.. i couldn't ride it myself.. someone have to pull the horse for me cause I just couldn't move or make signals to the horse to make the horse move!!! I was too... afraid that the horse will freak out and jump or something! Oh, i like ice-cream! does that count as girly and childish? =P i don't often take sweets though.
I had and still have feedbacks from my best buddy that I am too trusting. I had a close friend that told me I can be kinda ignorant. Heheheh my really close buddies thinks that I am not that innocent as others thought I am. Is that really bad or good? A friend wants told me he is so sick of my sweetness. Too sweet to handle! hehahahah rite rite =P
I do enjoy my youth & love staying young. I know when is the time I shall be child-like to express myself and also mature. So, it's kinda good that I have kinda like a healthy balance between both. At least, i hope so! ^_^ If anyone think otherwise, please do tell me. I can be the smiley type and I hope that i can brighthen another's day.
Though so, that doesn't mean that others haven't seen me sad before. I don't know why, I can't hide it my emotions well. I thought i was good in hiding it... boy, i was wrong. At least, over the years, i learnt that i shouldn't be hiding... hiding from my true self and true feelings.
I do aim to keep myself pure. I do struggle with it... i think it's what we all struggle with, especially living in this world, the media and the influence on how we are to live our lives if you want to be cool, be noticed or maybe to be part of the group... stuff like that. In addition, media mainly movies indicates that love doesn't seem to have any boundaries... and it is often associated with sex. Therefore, it is so easy for us to fall into lust. Well, that is what I struggle with personally.
I have to admit, i do like the song "Beuatiful Soul" from Jesse McCartney. I would love to have an innocent smile! hehahah which girl doesn't?
It's kinda funny comparing myself with how the quizzes describes me. That doesn't mean that we should be dependant on quizzes to tell us who we are... Just take it for fun perhaps.. think it over. Don't take it too seriously... just think about it... re-evaluate it. Quizzes can't fully possibly KNOW who you really are. But God does... Only He knows us full well.
Posted at 03:43 am by starlightliz
What does your beuaty lies?

A:
Your Beauty lies in Innocence. Pure, sweet and child-like. You most
likely look far younger than you are and your smile would brighten up anyone's
day. Seen as naive and sheltered, you can be ignorant at times, but for
the most part, it's simply your reputation preceding you. You are most likely
rather aware of the realities of life. You are extremely good natured and
trustworthy. By the same token, you are a bit too trusting. Be careful, few are as honest
and open as you. You might seem girlish still with a love of dresses, ponies,
and things most might deem you "too old for". But this doesn't
bother you. You enjoy your youth and are going to make it last. After all you are only as
old as you feel.
Some Things That Represent You:
Element: Light, Wind Animal: Kitten Color:
White, Pink, Pastels Song: Beautiful Soul by Jesse McCartney
Expression: Innocent Smile
Gemstone: Diamond Mythological Creature: Unicorn
Planet: Moon Hair Color: White Eye Color: Silver
Quote: "A stranger is just a friend you haven't met
yet."
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Posted at 03:05 am by starlightliz
Aug 2, 2005
What Lies Behind Your Eyes
I did a quiz on the topic above at www.quizilla.com. I thought it was related to what i wrote about previously. Interesting. Anyway, got back my results to my surprise, this is what it says...
"In your eyes, people see shards of ice everywhere... You are cold and distant, pushing away people that love you and truely care for you! You want to be able to reach out and love them but... You can't for some reason... You're just too.... You :P Underneath that cold exterior lies a warm, happy soul that wants to let loose and have fun! Your sanctuary would probably be anywhere up high where you can look down on life below you, like the roof of an apartment building... Your eyes resemble a saddened, crestfallen person seeking out attention, but doesn't know how to handle it. However, you do find comfort from your friends, they're always there for you, and they know the REAL you :) Even though you do seem rather cold, you can be very protective over something you truely believe in or love. Let go of that "tough" rep and just be you! It's impossible to live life without some fun and love ^-^"
This got me thinking. Well, i don't think people think that I am icy... cold or distant... hehehe i hope not anyway. Heheheh it seems so opposite than something i would expect from my results. What do ya think?
I like the looking down on life, like the roof of an apartment building though... but i prefer looking up at the skies! ^_^ staring at the stars... but we rarely have that in the cities of M'sia. That's why i love going to the city at nite, just looking around... the city lights. Anyway, yeah, i do find comfort from my friends of course... I truly thank God for each of them. Perhaps, a couple of friendships were broken, a handful of us went different ways and many still with me. I still appreciate those who stopped by & chose to stay even for a while. I am glad that I have met different people that brought some certian significance in my life. Those may not still be around me but it's okie. I thank God anywayz ^_^ because they have blessed me. Those who were with me and still are... thank you so much, for being here & hanging unto this friendship. I pray that our friendship will bloom... even if we have to part, may it not be our last journey together, instead carry each other in our hearts.
Anywayz, I can be quite protective... I am quite protective over my lil brother & my friends at times. Protective over my friends as in, I am concern with them, when they are sick and stuff like that. I will become naggy, like a mum... hehaha =P Hmmm seeking for attention but doesn't know how to handle it... *i really wonder... who knows?*
Hmmm.. do i push those who really cares for me and loves me? I know that I kinda used to... in a way. Maybe... until i learnt to accept them ^_^ and i am truly blessed by them. Some reason, i can't seem to reach out or love them back... *still thinking and wondering*
hhehehe what do ya all think? any comments? or is it just some silly quiz? =P of course, quizzes such as these, can't predict much or understand a person. It questions and answers you can give are limited. That's why you do it just for fun.
Posted at 04:21 am by starlightliz
Looking thru your eyes: A window to your heart
Have you ever come across a person, usually a friend *less scary that way* that can see through you? What I mean is that when he/she looks at you, he/she knows what you feel and just maybe what you are thinking about. Psychic? Hehehe I don’t think so. Some people just have the ability to understand and interpret a person’s body language & also able to see things in a person’s eyes. Perhaps the condition of the heart of that the person, whom is being watched, does not know or see it him or herself. Scary/weird?
Sometimes, I really wonder what the condition of my own heart is. It’s hard to say. I’m a girl that can hardly make my mind up. I too realize that I can be living in my own lil world; at least, then, I can understand my own place… I know where I am… but is it real? It’s hard to know whether I am being truthful to myself, my own state or just building this fantasy land, hoping that things are that way…
I wonder how come when I don’t seem to be okay… in a few minutes time, I can seem to forget about what made me sad or angry. I mean, I do know, but after that it just doesn’t seem to be a big deal. I don’t really remember why it was that ‘bad’ the first time round. I wonder whether this is just an illusion I create to protect myself, an avoidance way of coping stress perhaps or is it just me, that I could easily let go of things and forget about it.
I have a friend that could look people’s eyes and tell them exactly how they are feeling… almost knowing what they are thinking as well. At first, I though it was kinda scary because sometimes he tells me things that I myself don’t see and just haven't have a clue or understand why he said so. Yeah, i have to admit, i do brush it off occasionally but somehow those words become stuck in my head. At times, I do think about it but i do not know how to deal with it exactly. That is when I want to hide and try to avoid eye contact. Now, I realized that these kind of people are so rare. I don’t often have friends coming up to me, looking into my eyes, telling me about how I feel. Well, perhaps some may ask "are you ok?" knowing that something is wrong, but looking at the depth of it or beyond that what you see in the surface... It's just different. Now, i'm actually looking for someone that could look into my eyes and tell me what they see *have been running away from it so long* Why? I don't know, perhaps finding for someone that could understand me more than myself. Perhaps, i can distinguish between my reality and my fantasy world.
Will you want to have the ability to see beyond a person? I have to warn you, sometimes you see painful things. Sometimes, even when you tell the person, the person may not want to see what you see or will completely ignore you, thinking that you’re trying to freak them out. Many times you will be dissapointed because you can see something more or hope in the person, but he or she may not want to accept it. It’s just not as easy a thing to deal with as you think it is. Sometimes, you feel what they feel, and when it is pain, at times, you just can’t help thinking, how can I help the person… but have no ideas how. All you can do is do your best, being a friend and leave the rest in God’s hands.
Posted at 02:54 am by starlightliz
Aug 1, 2005
| How You Life Your Life |
You tend to deprive yourself of things you crave, for your own good. You tend to avoid confrontation and stay away from sticky situations. You tend to have one best friend you hang with, as opposed to many aquaintences. Some of your past dreams have disappointed you, but you don't let it get you down. |
Posted at 07:42 pm by starlightliz
Jul 19, 2005
Is cooking for me? Talking about my mum...
COOKING. Mum's word for me... You see, i'll be leaving to Aussie next year, rite? But i have no idea how to keep myself alive there. What do I mean? I really have the slightest idea on how to prepare a decent meal for myself. Well, at least, now, i can spend my holidays aquiring useful skills for my future.
So far, it has been quite interesting learning cooking. It wasn't as bad as I thought it'll be. I learnt how to cook...
1. Rice (I know, who doesn't actually know how to cook rice!!???)
2. Beef mixed with vegetables (carrots and potatoes) in tomato sauce
3. steam pork (i think they are minced)
4. mee hoon soup (with green veggies, crab meat & small pieces of chicken)
Yeah, that's all that i learnt so far. I started last Friday and again today. Sat and Sun, my family went out to eat for dinner. Today, i came back late from my friend's house. So, i didn't get to learn. I think my mum was sleeping though. She must be tired... She have been helping my dad in the "Treasure Hunt" event, for this coming Sunday. Plus, she have her assignments to finish up.
If you were wondering what kinda assignments... to update ya all.. she took up MBA course which started in Nov last year. She is the most hardworking student, I know of. Really! I really respect her on how she does her assignments and prepare for exams. Man, my brother and I, is nothing like her when it comes to studies. She puts in her all! her best! Yet, she have time to do her daily mum chores. I truly love her and respect her for all the things she does for us and how she managed her time to do other things as well. At times, she does her training work (freelancing job). It can be so tiring, i tell you. As a result of me, not being able to drive alone yet, my mum and dad has to occasionally, well almost everday, send us thru and fro from school, college, tuitions and places. Most of the time, my mum would do that, cause she is home, if she is not working.
There was once, a day before her exams, she had to send me to college, do her chores, bring me back home from college, pick my bro up from shopping mall nearby school, take him to tuition, send me back to college & my dad would pick me up from my evening classes. She didn't get to finish her notes for her exam the next day!!!! Then, i realize, how much a mother have to sacrifice, for her children and family. I am so blessed to have her as my mum. I love her! Though, i got some complains (just a lil) and scolding, but I feel like we have really burdened her. That's a reason, i want to drive on my own, fast! But, i don't think it'll happen anytime soon.
Thank you, God, for my mum!
She's one of my inspiration in my life! Love ya! =)
Posted at 02:43 am by starlightliz
Jul 15, 2005
Finally over! But why am i not excited?
The semester ended again! It seemed like a blink of an eye. The last post was about my sem's holiday. Now, again, it's semester break for 3 weeks to a month. I just finished my examinations for this sem yesterday. It was better than I expected la. At least, i have lotsa stuff to write about. I guess, I can score... but whether it is really relevant to the question, that's another thing.
I guess, i should have this great sense of relief after exams rite... like a long *phewwwwww*. This time, the excitement of having holidays and having my exam over, wasn't satisfying enough. Why? i don't know. Is it because I have not done my best? Well, I thought i did better overall, in comparision with my last few semesters. I really want to aim for a 'B' average this time round. Actually, i really had hopes for B+... but it's kinda hard to get now... My assignments was done in a rush, as usual! So, it was not produced in a good quality or... in other words, it wasn't the best that i could have done la. Oh, by the way, my avarage grade for each semester has been consistent.. B-. I really wanted to work hard for this sem, to obtain something better. To at least know that, i can do better than B-s in my college lifetime.
I love examinations this time round. Nuts, am I? hehehe ^_^ well, reason is because i did really well in exams this time. I scored B and B+, which i hardly do especially for examinations. Mind you, it was Psychology papers! I can really tell you, i don't usually get Bs for my Psyc papers. It'll usually be around the Cs or B-s. My electives I can reach that level la... but those are just electives! I am not really focusing on As yet. It seems out of my league... then again, i'll slowly climb up the ladder. If i can get my B- to B... I know that the B perhaps can reach to B+. I'll focus on As later. Oh, before i forget, let me explain how the grades works...
A 89-100
A- 84-88
B+ 79-83
B 74-78
B- 69-73
C+ 64-68
C 59-63
C- 54-58
An it goes on... well, not much to go on... after that is D and then, fail I guess.
Well, anyhow, i will strife to do better next sem on. So, how am i gonna spend this hol? Let's see about that... ; )
Posted at 01:16 pm by starlightliz
May 23, 2005
Hehe some of you must be wondering, where I have went too after the last blog. Waiting for me to update what I did during the holidays perhaps and whether I have actually done everything on the list. Well... no, i didn't finish the whole list. Sorry to disappoint some of you guys. The reason was I chose to do them after my holidays. Why? will explain my reason later. Anyway, what did I do then during the hols?
1. I organized some stuff for FLARE (CYZ worship team), it was today. We had a relaxing time and hung out last nite. I am not too sure whether using the past tense of hang out is 'hung out' (anyway, anyone out there that can correct me, you are welcome to do so). The guys cooked!! can you believe it and the they did a fantastic job. The food was delicious!!! Thanks guys! there were only 6 of us who turned up. 4 of us went shopping for food, the other 2 turned up at my doorstep. Thanks to my Worship Coordinator who helped me organize this =) helped me boost up my confidence in organizing events again.
The discussion session i was suppose to do with FLARE, i already thought of something interesting. Not easy to do though. I will have to dig out some info. More infos. It is postponed will July. I will have plenty of time... then again, time passes by quite fast. Will talk more about it when it is done.
I am glad that most of the planning part was over.
2. Yes, I took up piano lessons again. It has been great, not easy but i find it interesting. Really! Although so, it can be pretty tough for me because i have to break my old habits and learn not to restrict myself to certain rhythem patterns, chords and all that. It is really cool! My new piano teacher is a cool person! She is really talented. I admire the way she play. Well, i admire the way my 'si fu' play too! my 'si fu' in FLARE. He is really good as well! He has been helping me with the keyboard during worship practices, showing me a few pointers. Thank God for these people!
3. I didn't get the CD i wanted from Canaanland because i found out that i only liked 2 songs from the CD. It was even hard to find the CD, so i thought maybe i shall invest my money in something else. At last, i found the CD that one of my buddy likes.. well, the group that he likes la.. but i dunno whether he likes the album.. am very curious to know (am also late by 3 months). He loves 'Third day' you see, but I have this tendency that i am afraid that ppl wouldn't like what i give them, esp my best buddies. That's why sometimes i go around hunting for the best gift i can get. I recently learn that it is not much of the surprises or of the price of the gift i got them. It really is the heart. Whether it is cheap or small (cause sometimes i get really expensive stuff for my friends.. holes for my pocket i tell you), it still counts. I learn to have a budget on my spendings for my friends prezzies... Give them something that still can be meaningful and something nice but doesn't have to be expensive.
4. Yes yes, i did catch up on my readings. Unfortunately, it only lasted for a few days. I wanted to continue reading the book "5 love languages for singles" but I am still at it. Trying to finish it. I just bought a book, 2 days ago (Sat). I was told by my worship leader that it is a powerful book about warfare worship. She encouraged us to read it. I am excited to read it but I still have so manhy other books which i left unread after a few pages. I think i better stick to finish the rest of the books first.
5. I did go out with my worship team. No no, not my Campus worship team. This one is the main worship team in church (mainly adults in it). I had a great great time! On that day, we played futsal in the afternoon, swam in our worship leader's swimming pool apartment in the evening & ate seafood at nite. It was amazing! Really! it was funny how some of us play futsal, especially the girls. Some of us duck, when ball almost bounced on us... Should see the way we kick.. heheh especially me.. when i kick the ball, there's not direction to it. I just kick! and all running for the ball hehehe. Teacher Mok is the best =) among the girls team! Yey!!! It was so refreshing to be able to cool down in the pool! I haven't swam for a long long time, but i can tell you i really enjoyed it. My worship keyboardists sons were there. I got to know them. They are really a cute bunch of kids! I got to teman them play the slide... they called me "che che". I haven't heard those words for years!!! How i wish my bro calls me that. I was so glad that i was able to connect with those kids. Sometimes i feel left out because my friends can connect with kids better. During dinner, the food was WoW! The best thing was being able to walk near the dock.. open skies at nite.. wind blowing.. so cooling.. so romantic as well. You just look out at the ships... heheh i have to remember to get the pics from Yukiko! ^_^
6. I helped Aunt Steph moved apartment as well. I really had fun doing so. I was so glad to be at service. What i meant was, I was really happy and blessed to be able to help her with moving. I don't know why, i like doing these things, though i grow tired of it at the end of the day. Physically tired.. but it's okay. I think that it is worth my time, investing in helping someone.. serving someone. I haven't been able to help ppl much nowadays because i feel as if, i don't know how at times. I was so glad that i was given the oppurtunity to help her and her family. Brighten my day! ^_^
7. I spent time with my family though I did go out during the holidays. Well, i always bugged them to play games with me, watch a movie together as a family and all that. I too have replied my friends e-mails or friendster messages. At lasstttt! So sorry, for those who had to wait! heheh Yeah. Glad to be able to write to them once more and hopefully keep in touch with them through the electronic devices such as this in the future still. Some of my school mates came over to my place as well and we played Scrabble, talked & watched a movie. Eventhough, it was a short period of time, i was glad to be able to spend a day with them. I hope same goes for them.
8. Yes! I kinda cleaned my table and reorganize my stuff in my cupboard. I already packed my stuff neatly and put its place. My table is still quite in a mess *wonder why* but it is so much better than before.
Well, i haven't done the rest yet. Will explain in the next post. Am tired now.. really early in the morning. Need sleep. Take carez!
Posted at 03:14 am by starlightliz
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